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Problem
I never said it was a problem.
But you made it worse.
You wanted to cut to the chase.
Pulling me on an invisible rope that cut through my red flesh and bone,
until you made me nothing.
You left me in the darkness.
And You made your choice.
I had finally moved on.
Now you want me back.
You want my flesh and blood.
My warm breathe breathing into you.
As we lay on the floor with my legs open.
On fire.
Language is unknown between us.
What I know is that we are just animals
satisfying our needs.
No emotion, no feelings.
You just threw it away in the trash.
Picking it up again, making it a cycle.
Now it is my problem.
Promise
I promised that I would never give up on you.
I know who you are.
I have seen who you really are.
You have scars that will never fade.
They will always hurt.
I gave you a path to walk on.
You stopped
Looked back and when on a different path.
Big mistake.
You have no one to run to anymore.
I am not there.
Yet I will never give up on you.
I know the real side of you.
Even you don't realize it,
I do.
I will keep you alive for another day.
Because of me.
You have a life.
Illusion
I stepped into this perfect illusion.
I stepped into a hope that never was there in the first place.
I thought I could be strong, but my knees were to weak for me to stand up to you.
Who knew it would end up like this and you win.
Just your place, isn't it?
These are just games you play with me.
My nights, faded with thoughts
What if? Why?
Is it not important to you?
Apparently not, not when you were pretending.
I just don't understand.
Make me understand, please.
My perfect ending.
Just for you.
You were everything I wanted, the perfect one.
The best and worst memories came to be.
I should have know, I'm stupid just like everyone else.
I don't even know you, you don’t even know me.
Where are You?
I was the faded imaginary girl who you kept to play with, to mess around with, a girl who needed you. You broke me into more fragmented and splintered pieces. In this deep dark place, I’m a relentless creature who is ripped apart trying to get back together; to become reality Again. My blood is pulsing inside you. I’m in your head. My slow and whispering cold voice echoes inside yours. I am everywhere you turn. I never said what I should have to you. But it wouldn’t have mattered anyway. The sun passed on and it was too late. All I want is to run back to you. I’m wasted away.
We can never be at peace if we are under fire. The flames rising, burning us from the inside out. Our regrets, our grudges, our hate keeps us alive as blood spills dissipating into the air. I lay myself down, take a breath and look up seeing only you. Your expression gives nothing to tell. I found it where it wasn’t supposed to be. If you’re sane, you really are just insane. I lost sight of what I wanted, what I needed. I moved farther than you could ever catch me. You’re my warning sign to run. But my legs won’t move. I just stand there, breathless to your every touch. You were right in front of me, whispering.
I don’t hate you. I let you move on from me, but you were tenacious. I zoned out from you. I was never the same from the moment you broke my already shattered heart. You tuned me out and tuned me in. You flowed in my bloodstream, keeping me insane. I wanted to free my mind, but it ended differently than I expected. I was spinning out of control. The voices in my twirling mind called out. I wanted to rip every single vein in your not so distant heart so you can feel the anguish. But you never allowed me to. You were to strong, I was to weak. I faded out again and felt the rush in my crimson bloodstream and kicked in again.
Your warm hands lifted me up into the sky. I should have felt whole again. The pages were out of order. Millions of blank faces looking. Time broke. When will they come get me? When will they be hungry again. It never ends. War was breaking out, screaming, a shot coming from all directions. I was for sure going to die; in the back of the neck. Just give it up little girl. I don’t belong. The shot came for in between my two eyes. A new me was created.
A sky spilling blood. I was the sacrifice, the sin for them. A kingdom standing in a fiery hell. The ground trembled and my heart was alive. A black hole consumed the good. It fed on the evil that stood beside me. I have been transformed. And this was just the beginning of a whole new world. My body stained, a graveyard with the whole hearted good, now ghosts of the past. This is the new modern. The weak adjusted to their new dark, cold, misery days of their lives. I saw myself in a small girl. No happiness. No breath. No smile.. was this my projection of the past? There was no light in here. Her green eyes were no a sorrow grey with tints of pure blackness. I was the goddess. I had to adapt to this modification. I held her hand as we walked into the abyss, no path to walk on. She was the only thing that was right. I could barely look at her and when I did, my tears ran down. She couldn’t hear my voice, but I stood beside her. Days pass or what seems to be days, she became stronger. We started to run and left the others behind. We were now the endangered.
You were forgotten completely. I had a new pulse rushing through my thick veins of blood. I made a promise. She will be okay. I needed her beside me even if it really did kill me. The skies were on the bend.
She left her home. She wanted to wait for her dad, but he wanted her to run to safety. She waited with tears. They never came. She was without a home, but in that time, she made a family, other children who need a family. She never saw her parents again. She had freedom, the green grass on the other side of the hill. She wanted to be heard. She stood strong, not controlled by her fears nor her future. She and I were the new models of the new future. This was our oxygen we were living in. We will make it our kingdom. This was our dream.
Turn the lights off. A new revolution will start. I wanted to let you know my heartbeat is alive and ready to go. Let’s go.